Concepts

Nosidam Elegies: The Sixth Elegy

2010-06-06T08:27:00.005+08:00

6

The Muse has left the building
and I am alone in Helicon
to drink the solitary spring
that gushes forth against the barren rock
and echoes my lone figure
standing in the edge of paradise
to endure the memory of you
who pushed my frail heart to bravado
and endure these smallish things.
You are, and now you were. No more.
If it is me then it is not you, you who disdain it
but it is not me or you
It is not us
there is no us. We are not, not yet
not ever. But did we become? We never were
Was it what it was then
and when was it where it is now?
Memory, your mother still, betrays you.

The Muse has left the building
and I contemplate in Helicon.
Is it real, really there?
Like places on a map I can trace
with my fingers your neck
and ideas spring like lilacs from your footsteps
where ideals are crushed by pragmatic heels.
I had lost her.
She by whose invocation I started
who drew the tips of my unruly tongue
to forge out the splendor of the world
in the intricacy of the word
and we were felled by them as, laden with meaning
they capsized our Titanic.
Her meaning was my meaning
her life my life
her departure my end.

The Muse has left the building
and I wonder in Helicon.
Is it belief that closes one to wonder
or wonder that springs from belief?
It is what you do, what you show
a cycle, an embrace
the hands that grasp each other in pleasant quarrel
the lips
are they enough?
The answer is in the wind
where the breeze carries your smell
when I do not look
cannot look
pain is in the eye of the beholden
It, is in the blood that fuels the gaze.
You have always wondered what was your scent
and when I wore an old shirt I understood
It, is the scent of past
old and static, coldly dynamic
grappling at the ropes of reminiscing.

The Muse has left the building
and all is quiet in Helicon.
Did it sing to you like it sang to me
when it sang like the starry night
when the heavenly bodies swung in symphony
and it twinkled lullabies?
Did it fly from you like it fled to me
when it fled like the feather flung free
when the papers scattered in a gust of wind
and they floated down in perfect chaos?
Did it cry from you like it cried in me
when it cried the widow, the orphan, the dead
when the night came in so the sunlight fled
and by your goodbye it died and bled?
It is not an answer.
It is a question I never had
because I asked you of it
and the reply was no.

A Rediscovery of Lightness: May endings

2010-06-01T21:36:00.003+08:00

Pink petal blossoms
strewn on the ground come autumn
They are pretty still.

~o~

The flapping curtains
Billowing waves by the beach
A summer morning.

A Rediscovery of Lightness: Drops of water

2010-05-27T03:28:00.000+08:00

A drop of water
falls mute in the vast ocean–
ripples disappear.

~o~

A drop of water
falls mute in the vast ocean–
crescent waves appear.

A Rediscovery of Lightness: TOC and Bibliography

2010-05-27T03:24:00.006+08:00

A Rediscovery of Lightness
by J.L.L.M., Jr.

Table of Contents

Individual poems:

"Drops of water", (written May 27, 2010)

"May endings", (written May 31, 2010)

Nosidam Elegies: The Fifth Elegy

2010-05-26T14:23:00.000+08:00

5

The saline rivulets of sorrow
run their course across the cheek
where lingered your caress
pathways sourly retracing
the sweetness of memory
and the bitterness of loss.

I am a jeweler
and these are my beads. Colorless
they shine the loneliness of passion
and the sparkle of yearning's crudeness.
I make a necklace of regrets
and hang that noose around my neck.

Beads, a stream. They never stop
time never stops. We fool ourselves
into thinking time is infinite, time is
always there
as if the stars we saw before
were still alive today.

A streaking wishing
star
in the dead
of night.
Ten months, nine days and three hours
(we can never tell)
I last cried.
Streaks were meant to end
Streaks are all that are left.

Nosidam Elegies: The Fourth Elegy

2010-05-18T12:30:00.000+08:00

4

Love is not love but love is
Love itself
Love is not love but loving
Love is becoming, love is not yet
not yet, not ever.
Love is forever and never.

You are and I am.
You are, apart from me
Another apart, an other, a part
of me. And I am not
You, for I am, but I am if not you
Nothing.

So we speak the breath of windmills
and the labored exhalations
of the ground after a sudden summer rain.
We do not touch, like sitting in separate seats
brings you closest to me.
To me, wafting scents of the familiar
that knew you like the palm of my hand
where the back of your head used to lie
and I lied my goodbye. Who can part
the sea with his hands
just as we cannot part
the earth and the sky, if only for the horizon
I never reach.

I am nothing, and love is nothing.
Love never was, never will.
It cannot be
Love is the tremor of the unbidden quake
the wind in passing brushed your face
the hands that clasped and intertwined
the lips an instant removed from the second kiss
Love is. It cannot be. We cannot be.
Can we?

Nosidam Elegies: The Third Elegy

2010-05-09T10:16:00.004+08:00

3

It is night
and I look up at the night sky.
I was not supposed to be here
just like we were not supposed
to be
not to be. And we are not
the clouds shifting
and the moon is watching from above
as below the world sleeps.
Except for me
or you, slumped in the swing
now up now down
the sinusoidal wave of hearts beating
I will push you in the swing.
Momentum, momentous
The force of the moment weighs heavily on
me
like gravity pulls us down
to reality.

Clouds overcast, and the stars do not twinkle
The sky is too gray for hopes
or desire too ambiguous to grasp.
Maybe the venue was right
a playground in the city
not the Arcadian countryside
the rustic meadow, or a peaceful valley
but only of children struggling
for grounded happiness against the high rise.
Our rationality defines us,
and we know definitions are walls
if only words were drills
maybe I can reach you.

The wind moves. The cloud canopy
shifts and I feel cold.
The stars are dull but gleam slyly
as if to dare me to cope.
If, by Pascal's estimate
that men are farther from
themselves
than distant planets
I must be Mercury and you must be Pluto
I am spinning fast across the hot splendid sun
and you are not even sure
if you are a planet anymore.

The time between midnight and dawn.
Conversations get nowhere
the babbling distractions
the bubbling emotions.
If clouds were covers and the night was naked
What is never said is what always matters
words create and make concrete
just like the way you close your eyes
to make the kiss less real.

The dawn is breaking
The sky turns from black and blue to blue and white
And sunlight bleeds into the backdrop
Nothing and everything has been said
Can't I just enjoy the view?
Why must I force it out of you?
If I sleep, I die. If I wake, I lie.
If it is the truth
we are both dead.

Nosidam Elegies: The First Elegy

2010-05-03T23:30:00.003+08:00

1

Let us talk, you and I.

Commuting is the most intimate loneliness
and every step invites you to step down.
I enter, he enters, another enters
Where are we going?
The landscape I am chasing
pans beside my window
and the cars chase their headlights
as if lights know the way
like shooting stars know desire.

I read the signposts that thought
they knew me, and said
I am heading anywhere now
to which they replied,
anywhere is nowhere, and you could do better.
I checked my ticket and
surprise, surprise
I did not know the rules anymore.

I looked inside
and saw passengers, like me
some were new, some were old
and the ghosts of those who had rode
and failed
sat at the back, laughing merrily
as their lives drove past us in their Ferraris.
Maybe I will become a ghost too
and sit there with them
No. I grip the seat in front
and grasped empty air.

When I look out
the pedestrians
are few and far between
Few and far,
between
the stops are
few, far,
between
the steps I take
are few and far between
just like that I am walking.
Did I give up?

We are all going nowhere
and you will say nowhere is somewhere
and I agreed.
Why am I still moving then?
I should have died.
Death is the grandest existence.
Would you let me die then? Or
will I
keep
riding,

Nosidam Elegies: The Second Elegy

2010-05-02T09:19:00.000+08:00

2

The head on my lap did not stir
your eyes were closed in death
as you breathed my life away
your hands were curled, limp
fists readying to reassert their might
this is not us. No

we are not
a thing. But things we became
like the upholstery of the coffee shop
sagged and reeled and pounded
black as dark, shadows that flit, never met
the table, what scattered thereabouts
mathematics and literature
abstract and abstract
obtuse and abstruse
abstruse not obtuse
that we are.

I hate boredom. It creeps into the flesh
and eats your marrow
to hallow out the halls of nihility in your femur
stagger, blunder, bluster
the knees are weak, empty columns
as I watch you sleep.

The head on my lap did not stir
your eyes were closed to life
and that, unspeakable, that yearned to take
life into life, entwine the two against the yoke
of memory and reason that declined
not so, cannot be, impossibility
so I watched you sleep.

Dreams never come.
The eyes closed, never flickered.
Paths were narrow, and straight, and brook no distinction
no intersection
how then when I walk
the path disappears, incoherent
the babble of Babel
rejected the heavens, to reach the heavens.

No
we will not be.
Things are, they seem. But beneath
it’s true, my rivers of blood
flow you. Out the heart through the body into the heart
the heart, what heart, oh that heart
pump pump pump.
A slump, a shrug. Sigh.
Your mouth is half-open
and I can see your teeth.

The head on my lap did not stir
your eyes were closed to life and death
yearn to break we bridged the gap
I crossed and got thrown back
maybe once I could come in, but not now
not ever. Not ever?
Then why is the upholstery here?

Lies or truth.
Do I lie because it kept
or is it truth that lied to be there?
Do you lie because it felt
or is it truth that confused?
And my eyes are open
and your eyes are closed
yet we are both seeing eye to eye
yet we are both blind.

Nosidam Elegies: TOC and Bibliography

2010-05-02T09:09:00.008+08:00

Nosidam Elegies
by J.L.L.M., Jr.

Table of Contents

Part I:

Individual poems:

“The First Elegy”, (written May 3, 2010)**

“The Second Elegy”, (written May 2, 2010)**

“The Third Elegy”, (written May 9, 2010)
“The Fourth Elegy”, (written May 18, 2010)

"The Fifth Elegy”, (written May 26, 2010)

“The Sixth Elegy”, (written June 6, 2010)

** Each poem was originally posted in Facebook prefaced with an excerpt from Letters to a Young Poet by Rainer Maria Rilke, as translated by Stephen Mitchell.

The Metropolis Series: Part II, Scene IV

2009-05-27T22:37:00.001+08:00

PART II

Scene IV: History lessons during hot summer classes
(Or a tribute to Gertrude Stein, definitely maybe)

I. Parehas lang ng Idem the Same

I will watch my watch. I watch my watch; I am watching my watch. I watched my watch, I have watched my watch - I watch my watch. Watch the watch that watches you, watching the watch which was a watch I watched and watched without a doubt, a watch.

II. More sounds now/with body parts

I wash my wrists
my wrists with my watch
which water might wet
so out with the watch
the watch, my watch
my watch might get wet
when I wash my wrists
I'll wash my watch
after I wash my wrists
or washed my wrists
when my wrists are washed
I'll wash the watch
I watched the watch
and watched my wrists
washed without the watch
I watch

III. And then it gets confusing

which wrist will I wash first?
which side will get
washed
the side without the watch at first
or the first to wear
the watch I'm watching
and will wash
will it matter which washed first?
did it matter who watched?
Watch me washing my wrists
washed and I watch
I'm watching the water
Wash it away
Wash away my wrists
the watch kept watch as
I
wash away
Watch.

Love and Eternity: II

2009-05-01T01:01:00.006+08:00

The Deziremsem

Every time
Love so sublime
In all the times
(Time, sublime times)
Seen within my eyes
Stays within my heart
As I can't be apart
(Eyes, heart, apart)

My love close to bursting
(Bursting)
All else seems to be nothing
(Bursting nothing)
Nothing can stop this feeling
(Bursting, nothing feeling)
A man ready to risk everything
(Bursting nothing, feeling everything)
Yet for all his pains receives nothing
(Bursting, nothing, feeling, everything, nothing)

Love and Eternity: I

2009-05-01T01:01:00.005+08:00

I
Day/Night

Every day,
[The horizon glows in morning splendor
does the Sun tease slow with its golden locks?
The nebulous night turned vivid candor
lunar slumber pierced by golden-haired stalks.]
Every night
[That cools the embers of Western setting
crescent smiles sparkle with shining starlight!
That work and toil doused by slumber letting
slip silently in sleep of gentle night.]
Sadness takes flight
[A flutter, a gust of wind billows fast
As with your smile
(the muscles twitch and the mortals tremble)
Happiness alights
the softest feather drops gently at last.]

The Metropolis Series: Part II, Scene II-I

2008-05-09T03:48:00.003+08:00

PART II
Scene II-I: Spacing out 2008

Dipped in liquid time,

He stares.

There is (was?) meaning
in the loose leaves
of paperwork, and leaves
of grass growing
on these once rosy fields.
Underwater,
a bubble impenetrable
he sees the world
and the world sees him
but the world is a blur
to both himself and the world.
Retreating deeper he finds
hidden mazes and corridors
of psychedelic colors and hues
the color of the break down
He wishes to stop
but no one does
so why?
Dive headlong.

The Metropolis Series: Part II, Scene III-II

2008-05-09T03:42:00.005+08:00

PART II
Scene III-II: Give and Take

Ispeakincrypticdialectic

aconversationwithmyself
theonlyselfless self
whoconverseswithmyself
incrypticdialectic
andlistens.

Snippets: A Realization

2008-02-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

A Realization

The trench of himself, dug deep
Whose earthen riches unplumbed
Filled by murky waters
An island
isolated
alone
He sees
The world would rather have it
that way.

Snippets: Life is many things

2008-02-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

Life is many things

The oceans flow
Not as the tempest
Of Charybdis engulfing ships
But as the road
From life
to life,
A cacophony
That alone you do not make.

Snippets: The purpose of anger and jealousy

2008-02-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

The purpose of anger and jealousy

Is it worth it?
On, then off, like a switch?
Up, then down
that oscillating wave
of your heart beat
emotions beat
beaten by pain
bitten
a gadfly to your dreaming arteries.
Then stagnant
like water puddles
breeding mosquitos
Stung, sole reminder
That's the only time I'm loved.

Modern Myth: Kebong

2007-12-28T03:10:00.001+08:00

Kebong

He arrived, wrapped
His purpose minute
His appeal astute
His skin, clear yet foggy
Seeing through it
One can see the letters floating
A's, B's, C's and D's
Such singular organs
This being possesses
A supine, elongated body
Pliant and submissive
The wondrous mix of
Plastic skin and unknown gel
His blank stare
Pig-like, yet devoid of pig life
Bores deeper than the eyes
of passers-by
Such that Hamlet never saw
reflected in Yorick's smile.

Modern Myth: Heart/Forest

2007-08-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

Heart/Forest

To think, my heart is the forest
It basks beneath the sunshine
Yet only shafts of light enter its domain.
It is as it is, the forest
One enters uncertainty
That once the surest foot
Treads with trepidation.
For to be lost in the forest
Is most confusing, and dangerous;
One does not stop, or ponder the forest
He wanders the paths
And sees the wildlife
And stares at the streams
And gazes at the trees.
Is it the forest that makes the trees
Or the trees that make the forest?
No answer. The forest never answers
It beats to its own drum
And flows of its own.
The forest does not want, does not give
Freely, for freedom has its price
And that price is another
To make its own
Wafting vines of union
Binding their roots, two forests together.

The Metropolis Series: Part II, Scene I

2007-02-22T03:35:00.002+08:00

PART II
Scene I: Modern Life Regression

Alone
the beggar
sits
beside the street
And hears the
thump
of pedestrian feet
An upturned
eye held
always
in darkness,
A blank
stare
with open mouth
and voiceless,
She hears
the trampling
by the passers-by
That tread her palace
of garbage,
their sty.

The leaves,
dried and wilted
from autumn
mourn
With plastic bags
and cardboard packs,
her home
Devoid of
voice
her tambourine
will ring
Of silence
broken
now she starts
to sing
Sshh-sshh-sshh-sshh,
sshh,
sshh,
sshh-sshh-sshh-sshh.
The melody
sounds true
her thought and wish.

'Gainst division,
oppression,
depression
She is
not them,
their silent delusions
Jailed by the famous modern life blueprint
Perfect vision
blurred
by luxury's tint
No. ring true
to this life
and dead
to false dreams
Sing loudly
now
and by your song
redeem.

Sshh-sshh-sshh-sshh,
sshh,
sshh.
finger on the lips.
The quiet gesture
crackles like a
whip
And ear
retorts
by instinct
driven
Quiet
the drivel of
groaning heaven
The tambourine fades.
a plea escapes. dead
To "life",
the blueprint
by a beggar bled.

Love and Eternity: XXXII

2007-02-13T02:31:00.001+08:00

XXXII
"Love is..."

A 3-o'-clock conversation
on hopes and dreams,
A house and kids.
Surprise gifts and
suprise appearances.
A goodbye peck on the cheek
or a wake-up kiss while one sleeps.
An afternoon movie maybe,
or the last full show?
Or just dinner. Sisig.
It's not caring about your hair,
he'll be bald by then anyway.
It's a trike ride, a train ride
a taxi ride, even a carnival ride.
It's looking back and laughing
at the arguments, the fights
the dates, the movies, all those nights
Working late, miles apart
side by side.
It's every big thing,
every small thing
every baby step you take
I take alongside you.
It's a million things.
It's you and me.

Love and Eternity: XXXI

2007-02-03T02:30:00.002+08:00

XXXI
“Simple Poem”

I'm not so good with makeshift rhymes
Lyrical stuff and pickup lines
Or being there whenever you please
Visiting you can never be done with ease
Even calls or messages I forget
Yet dearest darling before you fret
Once I promised to love you true
Until I die I'll stay with you
Despite everything, I'm always here
Untoward incidents I have no fear
During nights when you'd cram it all
Every second I'd be at your beck and call
See, I love you so much
On lonely times I'd imagine your touch
My body lives on this memory fuel
Unblemished this love of me, a fool
Can't you see, my love, I'll never go?
Here I'll stay, loving you so.

Love and Eternity: XXX

2007-02-01T02:29:00.002+08:00

XXX
“Missing february Morning”

Misty coldness of the mystic morning
Yielding the skin to a tingling touch of
Fog covered in velvet tendrils clinging
Onto February dawn's satin glove.

(And the satin glove did trace my hands
To intertwine like the shifting sands.)

Upon the grassy earth I lie askew
Resting weariness on these fresh leaf blades
Then feel the prickling drops of wet dew
Encase my body as dear morning fades.

(Fading slowly to reality
Bring me back banal disparity.)

Except to me, forever is this day
Night stopped, noon stoppered and evening begone
Daylight eternal creeps in brightest grey
Until my love returns in a new dawn

Dawn of return, new welcome to old passion
Enter my morning, memories ashen

Snippets: Uneven Love

2007-01-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

Uneven Love

I wept
tears of dread
and thus swept
my heart slowly bled

the crimson pattern:
a trail, running
an earthen urn
of dead consumed, burning

life, the meandering
river cut short
inflammed, winding
back to port

and bursts
fragments of starlight
the epiphany hurts
descends darkest night

then clear, see now
my kindled passion
and saw how
it fizzled, fireless destruction.

Modern Myth: Green Fields

2007-01-17T21:43:00.000+08:00

Green Fields

As I walk
The green fields
Of dawn that glistens
with dew drops, listen
To the softest
tread I make upon
the now awake blade
And breath the
morning air
full of sweet
Revolution still.

When I walk
The green fields
Of noon-time
Feel the burning
heat of highest
Sun, uplifted
the top-most pedestal
arrayed in thousand
blinding rays
That dried
the budding carpet
Upon I bathed, I toiled
though the light
then led the way
The landscape
Picturesque
was melted away.

So now I walk
The green fields
Of night, where starlight
glows dim
To hopes, to grass
that thirsts
Unquenched
To pyrite light
as gleamed
Those golden apples
To stale old breath
that tinged
With cremated dreams
too soon
breath fades, then silence.

Modern Myth: Fireworks 2007

2007-01-01T23:42:00.003+08:00

Fireworks 2007

The clock struck twelve
And fireworks spiraled in
The midnight firmament
Of newly born stars
Sparking, sparkling
Spring blossoms of
Flowers springing in
The New Year sky
And escalates
Loudest cacophony
There couples now
Bright lights in the night
Bangs of firework cracks
Then nothing
Stars fading away
Silence.

Love and Eternity: XXIX

2006-12-16T02:26:00.002+08:00

XXIX
“Carols most merry fill the winter air”

Carols most merry fill the winter air
Hail, hail the little angels subtly fair
Rouse the sleepyheads and ring the doorbells
In time to hear the jolly jingle bells
See! Running lights bright in the starry night
The lanterns dot the roads,an awesome sight
Merry prancing pedestrian hopping
Adults, children, cats, dogs, nothing stopping
Still the evening chill cools the advent days
Warming the people from summer ways
Inside, I feel the emptiness creep close
The rush of need that so suddenly rose
Heavy heart shouting solitude to me
Your presence away my eyes clearly see
Once again this Christmas I sorely miss
Until next time, I'm missing my sweet kiss

Love and Eternity: XXVIII

2006-12-15T02:24:00.002+08:00

XXVIII
"The Canvas and the Moonbeam"

Fixed, the darkest canvas of night
Once parted these sickly grey clouds
Under them lie a thousand lights,
Radiant sparks on the mystic shroud

Then turns, that fairest body rise
Enters the dame with tame delight
Entrance with beams that daze the eyes
Now seen, her white glorious moonlight

Yes, that high lamp on evening lit
Once the sun withdraws to the sea
Until the dawn fixed above it sits
And stands foremost beacon to me

Never dying, nor ever fading
Deathless the moon rules the heavens
Most charming, forever lasting
Even now, I feel your presence

Escape the flaming gyre of life
That twists and turns my destiny
Escape the discord, endless strife
Riles my soul with obscenity

Now feel the moonbeams caress me
I rest upon my grassy bed
Then eyes closed I can clearly see
Your hand brush lightly on my head.

Love and Eternity: XXVII

2006-12-14T02:23:00.002+08:00

XXVII
"If cliches be raised"

If countless cliches be raised then
Love is blind and lovers are blinder
Once smitten, finally fallen
Viciously snared by passion's tether
Even now, that collar has kept
Your thousand multitude of glories
On flowing crimson rivers swept
Unto my beating chest of stories
Divine my love, oh esteemed Seer!
Unite these visions by Pythian trance
Discern now truth that has no peer
Embodied in our intertwined hands.

Love and Eternity: XXVI

2006-12-01T02:21:00.002+08:00

XXVI
"Inside plastic cases"

Locked inside plastic cases
Old tickets, antique events
Cherished things, previous places
Kept memories that we've spent
Every time together saved
Dinner receipts and loose change
Impossible odds we've braved
Now preserved for endless age
My case grows full and bulky
Yet memories bloom more so
Still growing red like cherry
On harvest bear fruitful bough
Under the coffeehouse shade
Locked in eternal embrace
Flowers age and petals fade
Only your touch in me stays
Rosy cheek may wither grey
Even gait may bend in time
Vision still keeps in display
Every charm possessed sublime
Roads we've walked and food we ate
Minced piecemeal in my old case
Your letters and our small dates
Living in so many ways
On jewelry, plastic bags
Very expensive gifts too
Even costly shopping tags
Enter plastic case for you
Eden barred from sinful men
Still lives in my plastic case
And still lives on even when
Hairs fade in my ending days.

Love and Eternity: XXIV-XXV

2006-11-23T01:39:00.002+08:00

XXIV
"Hers is the drop of dew early morning"

Hers is the drop of dew early morning
Adorn blades of grass turned sudden lustrous
Hers are tears flowing funeral mourning
Snake river-like down widow's mourning cheek
Glisten unbidden of stones most precious
Given native fairness blessed at its peak
She smiles, and the forests yield their branches
The sunlight deigns to send its noon-high beams
As she walks through her forested arches
And sunflowers swivel to catch her view
Of radiance her presence emanates it seems
Aspired by many yet possessed by few
Hers is the splendor that delights the skies
She is Nature in most feeble disguise.

XXV
"It is softest cloth"

It is softest cloth that pampers the skin
By slightest stroke sends shivers of delight
The simplest of touches stoppers the din
It is the glare of noon that numbs one's thought
Blinded thus by rays of highest sunlight
Dulls mulling reason to most mindless naught
It is fireworks that herald each new year
Exploding in sensational fashion
Sparkles and glitters seen from far and near
It is water found in the deepest lake
That reflects cleanly the purest passions
And priests pour purified for one's soul's sake
It is the brush between two lover's lips
Locked in Love's tender and passionate kiss.

Snippets: Dawn

2006-11-20T23:39:00.001+08:00

Dawn

Daybreak
Beginning
of morning
Brings an end
Night's field light will take.

Snippets: Hot Day

2006-11-20T23:37:00.002+08:00

Hot Day

Outside
Sunlight
so bright
Cast many shadows
one is pressed to hide.

Snippets: When Reproach Gets Too Far

2006-11-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

When Reproach Gets Too Far

Harsh word spoken loud
Echo direst traits possessed
Strikes heart cold and numb.

Modern Myth: Leviathan

2006-10-19T02:44:00.002+08:00

Leviathan

with swallow'd breath I plunge in the Abyss
dive down, swim past the blinding treachery
of light impaled by infinite Darkness
composing the fathomless deep black Sea

such deadly waters with horrors abound
goes fear-filled heart and wearied leg which limps
stutters terrified, movement by dread bound
and eyes that squint, by luck or chance did glimpse

a powerful form that reign'd o'er the deep
expos'd the amber eyes with power shook
awaken'd from state of dreamless sleep
fulfill'd prophecies from hallow'd Book

harden'd scales inur'd from all that harm
chain'd and coil'd like dark medieval armor
possess'd by aura reliv'd in grim charm
with gaze penetrate held thee in stupor

Despair sullies already bloodied claws
Dismay enters observer's fearful heart
Death echoes bitterly from carnal jaws
dismembers Hope and old Virtue apart

rise! now by Scripture's hand do terrorise
land-bound denizens forsake Him on high
for sins innumerable pay the price
thrown past Hellish gates, forever to die

thus roar'd the ruler of the myriad Ocean
Leviathan unleash'd fatal fury
and flames of Phlegethon in swift motion
razed and raged in fiery flame now bury

Pride, Sloth, Lust and wild Wrath foreboding
Envy, Gluttony and Greed been stopper'd
in fields rampaging with fire-breath blinding
by Leviathan was destruction spurr'd

body undulate, crash down the towers
of human Folly inspired to constructs
power imagined crush'd by true power
sinful foundation weak now self-destructs

and punishment from Him above now comes
feel LEVIATHAN and you shall Despair!
Death now beats its melancholy war-drums
Jacque's second childishness now lays thee bare

sinful wretch to oblivion be destined
extravagance leads thee the Reaper's snare
Leviathan judges thee who hath sinn'd
proclaim the final judgement! all now rise!

its awesome jaws unfold, its neck unfurls
poisonous odor from expended breath
horrific glaring eyes glisten like pearls
in manic terror raised pronounces Death

with a snatch leads Man to deadly demise
swallow'd, with Sinful ways recieves his prize.

The Metropolis Series: TOC and Bibliography

2006-10-13T23:29:00.001+08:00

The Metropolis Series
by J.L.L.M., Jr.

Table of Contents

Part I:

Walking The Pedestrian Lane At 10PM

Part II:

Individual poems:

“Walking The Pedestrian Lane At 10PM”, (written October 13, 2006)*
“Scene I: Modern Life Progression”, (written February 22, 2007)*

"Scene II, Part I: Spacing out 2008", (written May 9, 2008)*
"Scene III, Part II: Give and Take", (written May 9, 2008)*

"Scene IV: History lessons during hot summer classes", (written May 27, 2009)*

* Note: Unless indicated otherwise, all poems have been published in http://lemy.multiply.com (unedited)

The Metropolis Series: Part I

2006-10-13T03:32:00.002+08:00

PART I
Walking the Pedestrian Lane at 10PM

I walk by stupor slow'd,
out the door and to the night
a glance back bringing sight
lights blaring, glaring
in Darkness illuminating
Modern blinding cacophony
of Sound, Light, and sweeten'd Air
with coldness seeping skin beyond compare
I shudder, return to Night's embrace
warm'd and cool'd by Its gentle grace
Star and Cloud and silvery Moon
far comforting than Modern Doom
in Pestilence not a whit survive
in any form, in any kind
and most pandemic of all that thrive
haggard Sluggishness that Modern world bind
Sloth, that bodily motion it rests
and deems best to movement wane
in luxury's soft caress
action waxed and smitten by newfound bane
walking, strolling, wandering
with Darkness aimless pacing
lift, advance, put down
pedaling, stepping with clarity and vision
brooking no disparity
and focused in one Mission
yet Mission today I had none
no purpose, no plans
i walk, stroll with swinging hands
heading to uncharted lands
of Jungle Metropolitan, at darkest of dark
of Predators pouncing
and Prey unwary in unending lark
in step, I see before
my Path lies, crook'd, narrow, crack'd
like ancient roads of ancient lore
into the fore mysterious and adventure-pack'd
in stroll I length by length transverse
the pathway before diverse
turn left, turn right
forward harch with no end in sight
I see vagrants, in clothing bare
with aimless path approached me near
defiant stoop and wary glare
impose my innards with deathly Fear
yet no purpose of harm intent
a glare mistook for evil bent
melt'd softly to famished discontent
hunger, thirst, yet nothing to spare
rumblings that the stomach growled
retard'd body, mind impair
by Famine's breath unceasing foul'd
I traveled on, and wandered thus
Walker to Spectator of heated battle
male Tongues scarlet inflamm'd discuss
that that self-same field did verily rattle
in Tension palpable between male Constables
on petty Argument built Discord and Strife
small discourse transform'd to brutal Slight
wav'd threatened Harm and blinded Rage
that field became with Anger rife
I deigned to interfere
and pass'd their most detestable woes
pass'd the Peace-Keepers with attitude queer
in keeping Amity red furious War grows
then met I with surprise abrupt
three vagrants of differing height
dirtied by grime and fluster'd with dust
prancing happily in the fullness of Night
in amusement and fascinated delight
I slow'd my pace and watch'd their sight
and heard their Melody ring my ears
three Angels Wingless sing harmonious hymns
then pass'd a conversing couple
in dress well-made, in pace well-hurried
and snatched a fragment not so subtle
a phrase in which that hymn be buried
arrayed in pomp and disdain
with thoughtless glance made remark insane
hear nothing but ominous chatter
see nothing but Monsters in tatters
in Death there be many states
Indifference most callous and lethal fate
in spoken word released dids't decree
Death to angelic Rogues of all degree
gloom awashed I pass'd
In fourth time saddened last
Lo and behold the Modern flame
burning bright with lifeless Life
whence floods of men dids't came
that drown sorrows in drunken flood
inundate the grounded Angels 'round
suffering Angels of Flesh and Blood
roaming, staring into nothingness
desiring Food and Shelter, nothing else
and for whom the death toll early bells
rung by Prey turn'd Predator incarnate
that helpless Predator was hung
by comforted Prey discriminate
with Modern spear brandish'd and fatally stung
Disenchant'd, and weak
Burden'd by a world so bleak
Would that I drown in my sleep
and suffocate in my true Brother's steed.

Modern Myth: Scene I. Garden.

2006-09-23T02:41:00.004+08:00

Scene I. Garden.

[Observer:]
Honeybee, from flower to flower flee
Rest thy wearied wings, do let them rest.
Though time is gold, 'tis not golden to me
That drone impassive to thy beauty's best.
Automaton, its verdant cheeks betray
Such envy seeped in most deadly design
And leads thy wings too much astray
Then pales rosy cheeks and splendor divine.
Sacrilege! Yet by sanctity repelled.
Ageless time bears longer o'er beauty bold;
Ancient nature's law forever upheld,
That vibrant flutter turn to deathly cold.
So rest, my dear, stave its roguish hunger
Unceasing while beauty only lingers.

[Honeybee:]
Thy own praticality precedes you.
Do not haste to stopper my flapping wings;
Thine two feet tread within time's self-same shoe,
Doomed calloused footstep in its wearing brings.
For what sense is rest if not senselessness?
That ruins taste, and sight, and smell, and feel
And hears nothing, for rest disdains that stress
Caring none for that which life pains to deal.
Toil as I may and labor as I might
I am not as lost as thy resting soul
That cries for hardship 'gainst that dulling blight
And bothers me in attempts to stay whole.
So watch less and labor more, lazy sloth
Whimper none and work for your worker's broth.

Snippets: Dust to Dust

2006-09-12T23:27:00.001+08:00

Dust to Dust

I spring from the dust
of the universe;
From the ashes of stars,
pulsating still.
Breathed life from what once
was lifeless form;
Destined to return to dust once more.

Snippets: TOC and Bibliography

2006-09-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

Snippets
by J.L.L.M., Jr.

Table of Contents

Individual poems:

"Dust to Dust", (written September 12, 2006)
"When Reproach Gets Too Far", (written November 19, 2006)
"Hot Day", (written Late November, 2006)
"Dawn", (written Late November, 2006)
"Uneven Love", (written January 26, 2007)*
"The purpose of anger and jealousy", (written February 7, 2008)*
"Life is many things", (written February 20, 2008)*
"A Realization", (written February 21, 2008)*

* Note: Unless indicated otherwise, all poems have been published in http://lemy.multiply.com (unedited)

Love and Eternity: XXIII

2006-05-30T01:37:00.002+08:00

XXIII
“The bestest thing that ever happened”

The bestest thing that ever happened to me
Happens to be smaller than me
Even so she loomed big in my life
Big as the sun that shined so bright
Everyday we'll talk and chat
Summer heat and badminton practice
Things to pack and food to eat
Everything we could possibly think

Suddenly it seems that all might end
This wonderful thing that came to me
The fights and petty arguments
Hovered over our happiness
In time the fights turned ugly
Never a day without a shedded tear
Giving gloom where once was cheer
Can it be that this is the end
Over a year of ardor spent
Undone by careless cracks and dents
Love forevermore what became of you?
Deadened by indifference
Overtaken by fatigue,
Now we've gone way out of league

Love, don't go
You don't know how much I'll miss you so
Being alone out in the cold
Ever missing your sweet tender soul
You, love, are everything to me
One love that nowhere else I'll ever see

Until time ends my love bears immortality
My soul shall bear it eternally
Your image forever embedded within
Deep in my heart your name sounds
Echoes like daggers that pierce it hard
All I could say, and all I could do
Reminisce about the days I've spent with you
Ending it will be too much
Even now I miss your gentle touch

Sweet love, my love, don't ever go
Against all odds we can survive this woe
Hold me now, until time itself passes so

Love and Eternity: XXII

2005-12-12T01:34:00.002+08:00

XXII
"December Breeze"

My skin shivers in the December breeze
Enter the chill of winter's eve
Ringing bells and twinkling lights
Round each and every house at night
Yonder I see misty mornings of fog and dew
Children frolicking in the Christmas hue
Hand in tow of young curiosity
Radiating warmth, compassion and generosity
In every gift and card we share
Show each other our love and care
Time and again this season comes
Merrily we whistle those Christmas hums
As we pass lanterns of red and yellow
Showers of patterns bright or mellow
Enter homes so inviting and warm
Evenings so pleasant and full of charm
Stirs within each and everyone
A kinship unbound, feeling as one
Harken now, my love, my dear
Keep my love unbidden so near
Open your arms this Christmas time
Hearts melt together in love's warmth sublime

Love and Eternity: XX

2005-09-14T01:33:00.002+08:00

XX
"You and Me will Always Be"

You and me will always be
Only with you will I truly be happy
Upon your chest I lay on a cloud
Resting my head, I hear beatings loud
Memories of fingers intertwined
Your hand firmly clasped in mine
On every hour I reminisce
Never shall I forget our continued bliss
Ever shall I remember your warm embrace
Another day goes, everywhere I see your face
No words can express how I feel
Do you recall our conversations still?
On day and night we speak to each other
No day passes that we never bothered
Life's more joyful with you around
Your likeness in another I will never find
Helpless without your passion
At your side I feel my completion
Stay with me, my love, and let's see
Enter each passing day of our continuous journey
Ever as we walk together, you and me

High School, Then: Sudden

2005-09-13T23:26:00.005+08:00

Sudden

Where were we?
How could it pass so suddenly?
Are we truly gone for all time
Truly lost, memories of you and mine?

Holding back, I supress the tears
As I cry, and see realized my darkest fears
Prayed for a sign, a chance to make it right
Pleaded for a chance to turn black once more to white

Emptiness is all that I felt
Never imagined what I once strongly held
Exits as friendship is injected
Diminished, by closeness turned to hatred

Try as I might to forget the past
One can't ignore the memories that last
Until all that's lost will return
Still I cry, with tears that burn

Love and Eternity: XIX

2005-09-10T01:31:00.002+08:00

XIX
"Embers of Ardor"

Embers of burning ardor
Ever like a sweet day of summer
Sunlight rains sweet beams on us
As dewdrops wet plant leaves at dusk
Hope upon hope piled from early spring
From darling buds burst forth new offspring
On meadow, plain, jungle, plateau
Rainforest and farmland too
Eminence of summer day is seen
Verily compared to love's blossoming scene
Embers glowing, stroked by ardor's heat
Runs deep as two lovers meet
Yearning turns my days to darkest night
Only her gaze breaks dun's might
Upon her chest I lay my head
And listen to heartbeats speak more than words said
None can compare of your hand in mine
Dare I hope we'll stay together forever in time?
My love, as we continue this journey
Ever remember, its forever, you and me

Love and Eternity: XVIII

2005-06-27T01:29:00.002+08:00

XVIII
"As The Earth Turns, As The Sun Shines"

Ever as the earth turns
Ever as the sun shines
Still remains this feeling of mine
A feeling nowhere else will I find
Holding on to mere memories
I can't bear to leave behind
My life a book filled with our stories
Divided and conquered
You captured my heart
I felt helpless
Needed your love
Gave me your passion
With ardor inflammed
In our times together
Touched forever my days
Held as long as we could
Over time, drifted, forever apart
Until now, I've tried to forget you
Tried to, and
Yet, was unable to
Our love, sweet love, how could it be?
Ushered forever, in the bleakness of, forgetful memory.

Love and Eternity: XVII

2005-06-22T01:27:00.002+08:00

XVII
"A Thousand Shades Of Pale"

Color me a thousand shades of pale
A vain attempt for me to stay hale
Never has red touched my whitened cheek
Time's distant parting has left me weak
Frowns and sighs in shades of gray
On passing become a part of my day
Rosy pink has turned to cold, lonely blue
Golden memories silver into bleakness too
Emerald green painted my envy's passion
Turned dull by myself's self-dejection
Yearning for elusive rainbows
Of cascading colors that erase my woes
Until you return my days foresee cloudy morrows

Here tonight, as the darkness shall permeate
A silver ray escapes and glistens in my eyes
Silver memories I cling to as I forever wait
Even amidst the tear that glints in my cries
Ever I dream of the colors we'll soon create

Love and Eternity: XVI

2005-06-18T01:25:00.002+08:00

XVI
"When We Leave"

When we leave, do we leave truly?
Or has passion marked in those we leave
Nuances of an everlasting memory
There to stay for an eternity?
For a memory, a memory marked quite indelibly
Over times together, together spent gladly
Resides permanently within, within thy psyche
Gone temporarily, as if we never were
Emptiness believed to be forevermore
Time constantly clouding forgetful mind
Yet the unforgetful heart still stands
Our final adieu, a goodbye that will never be
Until I die your memory still beats within me

Elicits within me a distant yearning
Emptying my tears I've long held captive
Surely fair darling you to miss me dearly?
As I reminisce your fairness pure, as I fade to the shade
How can time erase this, this love that we had made

Love and Eternity: XV

2005-06-04T01:23:00.002+08:00

XV
"Envelop'd"

Envelop'd wholly by fairness pure
Entranc'd surely by charms that stir
Stir within me a passionate flame
Ardor that blinds within all blame
Heats the emotions to a boiling finish
Forever fancy that'll never diminish
Ostensible flings that fail to fill
Reality craves for something real
Enter the calumny and slanders all
Vilifying our ardor's infatuation
Escape the lies that we may not fall
Rescue the passion from destruction

Love and Eternity: XIV

2005-04-20T01:22:00.001+08:00

XIV
"Always Yours, Never Mine"

I was always yours,
but you were never mine.
I wiped your tears,
yet you fueled mine.
I offered my shoulder,
you turned your back.
I gave you my all,
you gave me the sack.
I dedicated my heart to you,
and that you decimated too
Yet still, no matter what you do,
I'll always love you true.

Love and Eternity: XIII

2005-04-18T01:20:00.002+08:00

XIII
"Like Summer Day"

My lover's eyes sparkle like summer day
Eyes that capture my mind and captivate
Light that blights the shadows that come my way
In one's fairness felt a love that can't wait
Stares that stopper my love's hearbeat within
Stars that illuminate the beauty seen
A mischievous grin that fuels my yearning
A soothing voice heard amidst all the din
Justice undone on the hair that you bear
Melodies echo as I hear your step
All troubles swept as I return your stare
Now forgotten the tears that had been wept
A lover so perfect that's not for me
Yet imperfect enough to fall for me

Love and Eternity: IX-XII

2005-03-27T01:17:00.002+08:00

IX
"How Speedily Affected, Afflicted"

How speedily are they affected
Afflicted by love Cupid's arrow inflicted
Stung by the passion's flaming darts
Evermore will ardor capture susceptible hearts
Enter a heaven so pure and fine
Untold bliss as I imagine you're mine
Over time this grows my love sublime
You're so intoxicating it must be a crime
Extend your charms to my waiting arms
Vindicate me with your touch that warms
On every day I think of you my mind wanders
Loving you takes all the problems off my shoulders
In your beauty I discover a world of wonders

X
"This Starlit Canopy"

Covering the stars is this starlit canopy
A blanket I'd gladly offer to shelter thee
Night illuminated by the shimmering moon
Tonight I'll take it down for you to swoon
You're arrival in my life has been nothing but bliss
On every night I dream of that special kiss
Under the shade of my window sill
Staring above not of my free will
Every time I see the heavens I think of you
Every night I sleep and dream of you loving me too
Inside my chest lies my beating heart
Loving you every second it can't bear to be apart
Only your image alleviates the pain
Vying for your love I wait in vain
Eyeing you and your every manner
Your graceful walk and silly banter
Over plain, or hill, mountain top, or sea
Under valleys, and caves, no one can see
Her very singularity speaks out to me
As I watch you walking slowly towards thee
Sitting alone I'm waiting for you
Evermore I've loved you oh so true
Every day I've waited for you to say you love me too

XI
"Until The Day"

Until the day I first met you
Many nights I've spent thinking too
A love so powerful it blocks all thoughts
A love impossible and never sought
Soon I learned my dreadful mistake
As I discovered the passion left in your wake
Killing me slowly as I watch you there
All alone I yearn to shower you with care
Your hair flies to the southern breeze
My eyes are captivated; I feel my body freeze
Everywhere I turn now I see
Likenesses wherever my eyes be
In times of loneliness I think of you
Surely you must notice how I love you true
Stop I must from this self-torture
A love for you that I secretly nurture

XII
"Willing Myself"

Willing myself to stop all this
Hating myself for this heavenly bliss
Everytime I remember you I stop and smile
Never noticing the second turn to a while
In rapture I sit in awe of your presence
Soon as I see you all makes sense
Evils large and small exit my mind
Eyeing you now I become singularly blind
Your face is the only one I seek
On Cupid's wings I take a cautious peek
Under the shadow of indifference
Ever have I longed for your sweet caress
Enlightened am I when I reminisce
Simply entranced as I imagine our first kiss
Allured by your looks and your manner too
Held hostage by that beauteous you

Love and Eternity: VIII

2005-03-24T01:10:00.002+08:00

VIII
"When Has The Sun Failed To Shine?"

When has the sun failed to shine from above?
Its consistency far removed from the wavering heart
Lives besought with twists and turns of fickle love
Let loose the demons of ardor that tear men apart
Yearning for that damsel fair unyielding
On Cupid's wings men run faster than striplings
Unbound strength exposed by one dearest darling
By romantic piercings his world soon crumbling
Enter the abyss that love soon wrought
Made by thought compounded upon by doubt
In cowardice the weak-willed have safety sought
Now the strong dive headlong to the drought
Evermore has time proven love's fatality
Mortality etched upon each failing romance
Every suffering lead by love's totality
Lifetimes consumed by love's chance and circumstance
In spite the wounds grievous that love may suffer
Succumb many still to the warmth it offers
Straight ahead as all still encounter
Ardor's heat the lifeline that none may flounder
As one takes the plunge into the chasm of passion
Never remember the time of indecision
Never turn back and repulse the vacillation
Enter headlong until you win passion's recognition

High School, Then: When a Poet is a Young Man

2005-03-22T22:28:00.001+08:00

When a Poet is a Young Man

When a poet is a young man
He is lame and broken
He has no experience, no deep thought
His shallow impressions fade from memory

When a poet is a young man
He is vibrant and fresh
His mind opens to the wondrous world
He puts conventions aside

When a poet is a young man
He is simple and monotonous
His simple verse and lame limerick
His exhortations cannot excite a birck

When a poet is a young man
He is free to dream
His words exhude the simplicity of life
His abstract lines borne full of ideas

When a poet is a young man
He is inexperienced and unwise
His thoughts are disorganized
He has no outlook, no deep insight in life

When a poet is a young man
His passage through life is a journey worth noting
His traversals endure suffering
His pain becomes ours through writing

When a poet is a young man
He knows none, sees nothing, and writes poor
When a poet is a young man
He knows none, sees wonders, and just writes.

Love and Eternity: VII

2005-03-18T01:09:00.004+08:00

VII
"Many A Night"

Many a night I have spent thinking
Everytime I feel the urge of sleeping
Lost I am as to what to do
In all the times I think of you
Souls that yearn for love long sought
Sought long for that love that can't be bought
A simple wish, an utterance
A fervent prayer for deliverance and guidance
Never have I felt this way
Never thought I'd ever see this day
Everywhere I look I see your face
Just a glimpse of you, in many ways
Over time within me the pressure grows
Soon enough the love overflows
Enter the chasm of uncertainty
May our love forever endure longevity
As I try so hard to make you mine
None can stopper my love sublime
All the times we've spent together
Yearning for something that's better
Inside my heart always aches for you
Loving you oh so true
On all the times I stare
Vying for your love to share
Ever have I longed for you
Yet still I don't know if you love me too
On this day I wrote this for you
Unto these lines I profess my love for you

High School, Then: Dead Poets' Society

2005-03-15T22:28:00.001+08:00

Dead Poet’s Society

Deliverance from the draught!
Ever stoppered by the oppressive chains
Anger that courses through our pulsing veins
Death stops us not!
Pain is eternal yet at same ephemeral
O'er trials, tribulations, external and internal
Evermore the camaraderie, the friendship we share
Time shall not fade each other's care
Solace we've long sought!
Souls of the divide, united as one
On each other's arms sorrows are gone
Commonplace we seem, yet assuredly not!
In the midst of mediocrity
Ever we live in solidarity
Time may break us apart!
Yet the memories together will forever be a part

Love and Eternity: V-VI

2005-03-14T01:07:00.003+08:00

V
"Long Sought"

Men have long sought for that which can't be bought
Everywhere they scour, they search and explore
Looking within for that which can't be caught
In them they find what they are looking for
Simple musing leads them to what they seek

Such a complex thing that this love becomes
A certainty with clear definition
An obscurity to which one succumbs
None who live desire of its conclusion
None want to hear of its ending passing

Ephemeral romances linger still
Just like a sweet and distant memory
Over time, these flings, they still fail to fill
Souls that long yearn for pure love's full fury
Every man's conquest, the love that they seek

VI
"Eyes Lock Fast"

My heart beat stops as our eyes lock fast
An image of you burned within my mind
Never felt this way before; hope it lasts
A love like this I'll never again find
Your smile makes even the darkest day shine

Modern Myth: TOC and Bibliography

2005-03-13T23:11:00.000+08:00

Modern Myth
by J.L.L.M., Jr.

Table of Contents

Collectively published previously as:

Other Works, “J.L.L.M., et. al.", 2005. (includes “A Lonely Tree In The City”, "Scene I. Garden")

A Lonely Tree In The City, "sofolofagus", 2005. (individual, posted at http://www.tabulas.com/~sofolofagus)

Individual poems:

"A Lonely Tree In The City", (written March 13, 2005)*

"Scene I. Garden.", formerly titled "Reflections", (written September 23, 2006)*

"Leviathan", (written October 19, 2006)*

"Fireworks 2007", (written January 1, 2007)*

"Green Fields", (written January 17, 2007)*
"Heart/Forest", (written August 21, 2007)*
"Kebong", (written December 28, 2007)

* Note: Unless indicated otherwise, all poems have been published in http://lemy.multiply.com (unedited)

Modern Myth: A Lonely Tree in The City

2005-03-13T02:38:00.002+08:00

A Lonely Tree in The City

The lonely tree
That stands on guard
His proud gait and sneering stares
From up high on the citizen blares

They shudder and take cover
From the tree that over them hovers
And plot with evil thoughts
The downfall of the tree that slumbers

With axe in hand and torches alight
They storm the front and go beside
The sleeping tree caught unawares
Was caught by the deadly village snare

After the ravaged wood tree fell
The people sang a thunderous yell
And the tree was carried off to the square
And burned to cinders straight to hell

After such time summer descended
On the village the tree once tormented
And soon the summer heat burned their city
And the villagers realized
what had come to be

An imagined foe
Turned irreplaceable friend
But what’s done is done
The lonely tree is gone

Love and Eternity: TOC and Bibliography

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Love and Eternity
by J.L.L.M., Jr.

Table of Contents

Collectively published previously as:

Poems, “J.L.L.M., et. al.", 2005.
(includes I-XX, posted at http://dpsct.cjb.net)
Poems for One, "sofolofagus", 2005.
(includes I-XIV, posted at http://www.tabulas.com/~sofolofagus)
[Individual], "Jesus Lemuel L. Martin, Jr.", 2006.
(individual, [The bestest thing that ever happened to me] posted at http://www.friendster.com)
Eg Amo Te, "Jesus Lemuel L. Martin, Jr.", 2006.
(includes poems I-XXVII except XXI, XXII, posted at http://lemy.multiply.com)

Individual poems:

Day/Night, (written March 09, 2005, revised May 1, 2009)

The Deziremsem, (written March 09, 2005, revised May 1, 2009)

"Hark, Fair Lady", (written March 09, 2005)

"In Times Of Loneliness", (written March 09, 2005)

"Long Sought", (written March 14, 2005)

"Eyes Lock Fast", (written March 14, 2005)

"Many A Night", (written March 18, 2005)

"When Has The Sun Failed To Shine?", (written March 24, 2005)

"How Speedily Affected, Afflicted", (written March 27, 2005)

"This Starlit Canopy", (written March 27, 2005)

"Until The Day", (written March 27, 2005)

"Willing Myself", (written March 27, 2005)

"Like Summer Day", (written April 18, 2005)

"Always Yours, Never Mine", (written April 20, 2005)

"Envelop'd", (written June 04, 2005)

"When We Leave", (written June 18, 2005)

"A Thousand Shades Of Pale", (written June 22, 2005)

"As The Earth Turns, As The Sun Shines", (written June 27, 2005)

"Embers of Ardor", (written September 10, 2005)

"You and Me will Always Be", (written September 14, 2005)

"December Breeze", (written December 12, 2005)*

"The bestest thing that ever happened", (written May 30, 2006)

"Hers is the drop of dew early morning", (written November 23, 2006)

"It is softest cloth", (written November 23, 2006)

"Inside plastic cases", (written December 1, 2006)

"If cliches be raised", (written December 14, 2006)*

"The Canvas and the Moonbeam", (written December 15, 2006)*

"Carols most merry fill the winter air", (written December 16, 2006)*

"Missing february Morning", (written February 1, 2007)

"Simple Poem", (written February 3, 2007)*"

Love is...", (written February 13, 2008)*

* Note: Unless indicated otherwise, all poems have been published in http://lemy.multiply.com (unedited)

Love and Eternity: III-IV

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III
"Hark, Fair Lady"

Hark, fair lady
And hear my cry
Saying the truth and naught of lies
Evermore my love is true
Everytime I say I love you

IV
"In Times Of Loneliness"

In times of loneliness
Salvation manifests
Saved by the memory of you
As I remember my love so true

High School, Then: Reach

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Reach

Cold and lonely, bitterness
Hidden deep, here in my heart
Ripens with each day that passes
Inner feeling coming out
She comes, soft-spoken and quiet
Stirring my heart in her wake
A simple beauty and grace
Yet I cannot even touch
Ever remain in shadow
Not as lover, only friend
Kills all my hopes, for I know
Only she can save me
from falling to shadow

High School, Then

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High School, Then
by J.L.L.M., Jr.

Table of Contents

Collectively published previously as:

Other Works, “J.L.L.M., et. al.", 2005. (includes “Dead Poet’s Society”)
Dead Poet’s Society, "sofolofagus", 2005. (individual, posted at http://www.tabulas.com/~sofolofagus)

Individual poems:

"Reach", (written 2003)
“Dead Poet’s Society”, (written March 15, 2005)
“When a Poet is a Young Man”, (written March 22, 2005)
“Sudden”, (written September 13, 2005)

* Note: Unless indicated otherwise, all poems have been published in http://lemy.multiply.com (unedited)